Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in jasonmagik's LiveJournal:

Sunday, June 18th, 2006
10:43 pm	A Perfect Day Tomorrow, I'm gonna have a perfect day. I will not smoke, I will eat. I will get through the job. I will play the guitar. I will not get sad thinking about Barbie. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 10th, 2006
2:42 am	Lonely So yah, i'm lonely, and i don't understand what i need to do to find someone! I'm not ugly, i have a good personality, sigh....All i know is that i really envy all those couples out there right about now, being alone and lonely sucks. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
3:03 pm	smoking, gotta be strong Well, i've been weak today, smoked without any attempt to stop myself or count how many or anything. You have to be strong Jason! Do not be weak, do not let the desire to smoke overtake you, it may seem enjoyable, but in reality, it will kill you!!! Be strong!!! Do not be weak!!! Read the writing on the wall, it is no secret, it's BAD for you!!! Sigh....Why am i so STUPID~!!!!! I should know better!!!! (Comment on this)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
11:16 pm	Walls walls. I've got them. And until very recently i never realized how scarred i was. in the past couple years, i've been through alot, and i've built up all these walls to protect myself, to keep me numb from feeling pain. and now...i think i'm dead inside, i don't know if i'm capable of feeling anymore...i know it's in there, like a neverending scream, fighting to ge out, but i shut it behind all these walls, walls to keep people out, walls to keep my emotions in...and you know what, as terrible as it is, there's a part of me that is glad those walls are there...they kept me numb and got me through the pain, and now i've been through so much, and i'm still here, but i can't feel, i can't really let anyone in, and i want someone so bad, i want someone to hold, someone to love, someone to laugh with, and i don't even know how to let go of all these damn walls... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
7:57 am	Wednesday Okay, so i took my Wellbutrin this morning, and we'll see how the day progresses, it's supposed to help like 20% of the people that take it to stop smoking, but i figure it's an antidepressant, so i get a double dose of Wellness from this stuff! It's 7:59am and i've smoked ONE cigarette so far!! (13 Comments |Comment on this)
2:22 am	Confused How can you see into my eyes Like open doors? Lading you down into my core, Where I've become so numb. Without a soul, My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold, Until you find it there and lead it back Home. Save me from the nothing I've become. I don't even like the song that much, but that one lyric just gets me. Save me from the nothing i've become. I've got so much, i look good, i make good money, but my life is sorta empty, i push people away, what's wrong w/ me? (Comment on this)
1:47 am	Beginnings The one thing i don't want to forget, the reason i'm starting this livejournal, is that it gets better, even when it seem crappy, it gets better. (Comment on this)